Forever Love!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

woo, finally i can blog! i am so happy i can blog again now bcz the last time i blog was a sad blog and when i click submit, it failed. Hahaha ......

I really had bad mood week during the 1st week of March. I am sad bcz of love problem, luckily it just lasted for 1 week. I couldnt find who i love, or did i love sumone, bcz i felt more lonely than loving a girl. Actually i just havent meet the girl i wana chase but i had met several girls that i like or love, though what really making me angry was distance or either she alredy has partner. PC was the latest girl who had touch my hearts but so bad she just stayb few hours drive from me. I had told myself not to have any far relationship anymore bcz it is tough relationship. I ended my patience for Melissa bcz i alredy search the answer that although i like her and wanted to approach her, i finally founded that she not that suit me and i dont meet her requirement as i guess, but i know if i chase her long ago, i would be the best candidate. PAST! Haha, the last 2 girls i wanted to chase named Melissa but i didnt make my move bcz i found my heart not seriously wanted to do it, as a fact, my last ex-gf was also name Melissa, i got terrible relationship with her 3 years ago bcz we turned from a good romantic couple to be less-love couple. Maybe its my bad that i cant match what she wants, i alwsi knew i alwis not a fully confidence guy, thats all the reason that few girls blamed me i cant chase them or they didnt choose pick me bcz of this. Another reason was much more funnier, i wasnt tall enough to own more gf, i remember my sister's friends told me this, if i 10cm taller, i could be a model and i just keep laughing but i have to happy for what god gave me a 167cm tall.

Erm, its very nice to love or chase a girl, i really enjoy this moment, esp the feeling that almost get her and the days together with ur love 1. Maybe after get her as gf, it wont be that romantic and i sensed it really happened bcz she alredy on hand. Haha, i enjoy go out with most of da girls i like, but yet i cant find any who i should love bcz i prefer girl with long hair, good dressing, eyes, shoulder and voice. Face isnt that big problem but attitude does the matter. Maybe i am referring to PC, a pretty babe who is a primary school teacher at JB. I am happy that my friendship with her is good but sadly, i cant speak mandarin well but luckily, she can help me a lot. I love her voice and attitude. Its all about dream ... i shall stop blogging bcz i wont stop if i think girls that i like... after i settle with Melissa, i got few problem with Joanne but she got bf and i dont feel she give me a safe feeling so that i regret for what i did with her. How good if PC is a teacher in Subang Jaya but but but .... i just need who i really love, its no-one. that's why i am sad bcz no one to love. i am sad to see my fren failed to chase the girl they like but i also envy that they has their target to chase while i couldnt find ... lol

Still, Where is the Love?????????????

Hey all, i having a GREAT and WONDERFUL Chinese New Year but having a doom and bored Valentines Day. I believe that my bad luck in January turns to be the good luck in February, thats really true.

First of all, i very happy bcz i can meet my whole family and having few high class dinners with them, all sponsor by my elder brother (suprise to see him spent so much money). Most of all, a happy dinner that i seldom have. Suprisingly, my dad gave me a wonderful present, its too huge and i fear that its too big for me to accept. So suprise to see my elder brother change a lot, he really look like a boss now. My family ended year 2004 with some good business grower.

Secondly, i nvr thought i can meet so many friends this year. Its begin during Chinese New Year Eve, my brother bought some wonderful fireworks to celebrate. So i called all my secondary frens to come celebrate and watch it. Unexpectedly, it about 40 friends came and my BROTHER laughed immediately. I expected around 20 as every year's figure but this, i meet with so many old friends that lost for about few years. I was so exciting.

Third, as usual to kill time each gathering, we play cards as liltle, as player, i just won RM100++ in 2 nights but at 3rd night, i forced to be banker and i won a suprised RM1k at beginning, i swear that i would open a magnum at club if i win 2k plus, damm, its really happened, lol. And i won another RM700 at another night... still i splashed out to sponsor a big magnum and small bottle Chivas at WhereElse?, but not enough, we got about 15+ guys and 10+ girls, quite happening tat our table having 6 small bottles before a magnum come out. WOW, its a fantastic R&B club but all my frens esp girls were complaining damm hot. A funny thing was, i getting high and pick some girls, damm embarrassing, bcz she was my friends' friend. Weee! i like to club at Ipoh during CNY, its really damm freaking lot of chiqs...

Damm pity to most of my frens, they all lost RM200-300 and i was the sole winner. I won almost 3k, but i alredy sponsor back 2k for them, so it wont be a sad New Year for them. I won and spent their money to buy happiness, it shown when i paid for seafood and "lou sang" dinner. I wish how many happiness i get through this CNY.

Damm, this is my 2nd straight Valentine Day's i spent as bachelor. I dunno whne i can find my love one. Faster appears lah, winks* hahhaahahah, i only can blamed myself bcz what i did last several outings was just disgusting for girls and i regret for what i did. Maybe my confidence that time was really low until i prefer solo. I shall get a companion instead... i miss the old days having a great gf.... if this happen, then my 2005 is just as wonderful as ...

Sigh, damm angry for today evening, another CNY eve gift for me, a sudden coconut tree's leaf drop to my car's main screen window under my apartment parking this evening. I dunno what the hell happen to my car. Alwis unlucky... Last 2 weeks, went Kuchai Lama foodcourt for lunch after fetch Brian there, dunno who the hell bang behind my car, luckily no damaged but left some the car colour into my left side behind. That was 5th minor hits i got in 2 years time. I mean i park my car at certain car parks and when i come back, the square side knocked jsut a bit without any serious damaged, just caused my colour loss and can see the primary black colour.. The 1st time was the most minor 1, once caused my silver colour lost abt 1 inche but that was happen my 1 week old car, so i cant sleep well too. I dont mind the first 4 times bcz thats just minor cases and not that serious., suprisingly, those 4 knockeds were all the 4 angle sides that my car had.  BUT! i cant accept for today ... i just duno why me, i think i got problem about choosing car parks. I am accident-free driver since i got my car license more than 6 years ago. But this happen to my car park under my apartment. I dunno how to park my car again next time since that parking slot is belong to me. Sigh***

Just spent RM500( own pocket) two months ago to repair my car after my engine's dynamo crashed and unable to charge battery. Now, i save so much just for CNY clothes, perfumes, shoes and most of all handphone. But i have to cut abt RM500-600 from the RM3000 for my main screen. Guess i only can spend RM1000 for handphone and not more than RM1000 for new clothes. I dream to buy a Levi's straight cut jeans and Izzue.com jacket for a long time. Problem is i not dare to tell my parents bcz i scared kena scold for the unsafety carpark i having. I dunno why i alwis not dare to ask my parents for this kind of  money since i am just student but i know they spent a lot for me every month. What a gift for CNY Eve. I am alwis like that, each time i am so happy to count my saving to buy goods,sure got this kind of things happened at me so that i must postpone my plan. Huuu... i cant count how many times.

Do you all know about me? Every year for my CNY's new clothes since i was Form 3, i spent using my own saving from the monthly expenses from my daddy and there was no extra allowance for it like all other friends have. I had bought about 5 handphones since 1998, total cost RM7000, all using personal money/savings, i remembered i bought  Motorola V for RM2600 at 1999, i lost it after 1 month and i very feared they scold me, so i bought another V  for RM2400 to replace it, but my parents discovered it and i was so HAPPY bcz they not dare to scold and know i scared they sound me. Its a big relief to use own saving to buy my own things. But i still love my RM500 back for my stupid new main screen tomorrow...

Hai, Happy New Year to all... and finally i came back to Subang just few days ago. Quite miss here but after i came back, i felt i miss my hometown. What a sigh case. Maybe i work at ipoh so, after i came back here, i hasnt touch the things i suppose to do and i keep on having boring days. Hope its not ahead of me. Weeeeee ..

Erm, class starts next week, hope my life would change back again! sigh! And i just got introduced a work by my friend, called Jutarian plan from PIN CENTER and Celcom. Quite a good part time work. Easy and relax. Very difficult to cope and adapt in beginning month but i convince it would be better after get more than 10 customers. 1 customer gets me RM120 + low monthly commission is not a bad idea for college student. But it turn to be better commision after 24 months. Hmm, hope i can do it. My target is still 30m customers, a team manager! After a hard beginning, so easy in income i future is quite worth to come.

I just passed my Friday and Saturday night so boringly... duno wat to do, at last i went home and watch VCD and then sleep. By then after i wake up, i regret that i should join my friends to Rush or Thai Club. Feel quite like old man or lazy, but my heart wish to go anytime... bcz if i dont enjoy now, i dunno when i enjoy. I fear i dont have much time after i work full time.

Another friend marry end of this month. Haha. Pity him, have to marry at the age of 24 but this would be great move too. Since got support from family, hope they can have a great family.

There are things i want to do to fill my time. After get 1st part time job, i would like to save on for clothes for new year and handphone. I dunno what phone to buy bcz i seems dun like all. I prefer simple camera and colour phone. I using Samsung but i would like to buy Motorola, the best line and use phone. Its all dream on... i got to catch my dinner with my manager.... cya all!